What I Have Noticed

My Blog is seeming to be negative. And I am sorry for it. But, I have also noticed my faith is coming out BIG TIME in my posts.

I believe in a LOVING Heavenly Father. Plain and simple. Even with all the troubles, stress, tears, and pain. I know He loves me. I know He has what is best in mind for me. I posted before my mission about a song called "Trust Me" by The Fray. It is my favorite song. Why I love this song, one line, "When your older you MIGHT understand." Even though I am older I don't quite understand. I was thinking about somethings going on not related to the job hunt. And thinking about my mission all in the same moment pretty much. And for a moment I understood why my mission happened the way it did. I realized if I would have given in to what I wanted then I wouldn't have met all the great people I met in New York. I wouldn't have been a part of their lives and they wouldn't have been a big part of mine. I wouldn't have changed the way I did. It would have been easier for me to just give in to what I wanted and not to stick out to know what the Lord wanted. I grew. I changed. I hope I became what the Lord wants me to be. And there is a little bit of the understanding. I know my Father in Heaven loves me and knows me more than I do. I know He wants me to be happy. I also know He know better than I do where that happiness will come from. And I am going to let him provide it. I am just going to have the faith that he will point me in the right direction when it comes. I know He hears and answers my prayers. He wants to give me what I want. But, I also know what I want isn't possible. So, He is going to give me the thing I didn't know I wanted. Or He is giving me the something better.

I do believe that things happen for a reason. There is a reason why I haven't gotten "that job" yet. I just need to hang on and enjoy the ride in discovering that reason.

Check this post out from before my mission. I still believe it 100%. And one last link. . . It makes me smile. We need more people like her.