Things Happen for a Reason

It has been so long since I have written. I'll be honest. Life hasn't gone the way I wanted and I have been frustrated, angry, and depressed. It has just been easier for me to pretend to everyone else that everything is okay. I still have a lot of these feelings but things are getting better. I have so many things I want to write about, but every time I get started I can't seem to finish it. I come back to it a week or two later realize it is old news and start over again. I am determined that today will be a different. I will finish this post and I will hit publish before I go to bed today.

Six months ago I left this wonderful Sister in the hands of a new companion and in the hands of a wonderful ward.

Six months ago these six Elders and I left the wonderful planned out life we were leading to the unknown of what was back at home. I had everything planned out perfectly I was going to come home start applying to different districts and get a teaching job. I would be ready to go WAY before school started in August/September. My teaching life would no longer be in storage I would be looking for a place to live and by October I would be out of my mom's house and my living life would no longer be in storage. I would have my ideal life.
I believe everything happens for a reason. There is a reason why I didn't get any of the 8 teaching jobs I interviewed for. There is a reason why I ended up a part time classified job. It has been hard accepting that things are supposed to be different than my plan.

Let me tell you about the plan Heavenly Father had in mind for me. I am the "enrichment" T.A. I work 15 hours a week at the school pulling out small groups of kids between 9-11 kids at a time. These kids are the gifted students. My job is to make their education experience better for them. The first month was hard. I didn't know what I was doing I didn't have any kids in my classroom. But since I have started teaching every single day things are getting better. Today I had two awesome lessons. Both of my administers have given me some great feed back. One of them told me she passed by when I was teaching and she noticed I looked happy and in my element. That is how I feel when I get up in front of the kids, no matter how big of a group I have. Instead of leaving my mom's and starting my own life I will probably be here for at least until next school year. But, that is okay. While MY plan hasn't panned out in the last 6 months Heavenly Father's has. So, I will keep moving forward and try to figure out His plan for me.