"I believe everything happens for a reason! People change so you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you can appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so that you will eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes, good things fall apart, so better things can fall together." Marilyn Monroe
Good things do fall apart. And there has to be something better falling together. I should be getting ready for year four. But, instead I am getting ready to live in New York for 18 months. (I just realized I will be living in New York. That is so not me.) I still would like to rewind the last two years so I could try to fix everything. Maybe it is that whole it seems what I want is better than what I am getting. When in reality, I look back and in my teaching life the only thing going for me was. . . teaching. But, I also look at the last three months of my life and it feels like nothing is going for me. All I have been doing is waiting. Waiting to finish paperwork, waiting to receive my call, waiting to leave in October. I believe I will be blessed in the long run for serving a mission. It is just so hard to remember to have that faith when I see/hear all the reminders that school is starting soon. And then I am faced with the whole uncertainty of what I will be doing for 18 months. Teaching is safe. Teaching is comfortable. Being a missionary scares me. I just need to keep praying that everything will workout the way the Lord wants it too. And get rid of the feeling that I am just running away. Because I am not. I am trying to become someone better than I ever could on my own.
2 comments:
Allison may be this it the lord way of helping you find other things out there then just teaching. When there is one good thing in you world you are missing out. So go out find new joys and let the Lord take over you life.
Being a missionary is being a teacher. You should have it down, having done it for the past three years. And remember that you won't be alone.
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