Random Thoughts

So I sat here yesterday wondering where in the world all my money went this month. I get payed the same amount every month I would hope that I could manage to not overspend every month, then I realized between new glasses, contacts and the eye doctor. That took a lot of my spending money. Then I continued to spend like I had all the money in the world to spend. So, there went my whole paycheck and it is two weeks before I get payed again. However, little blessings, my roommate payed me back from the things we bought earlier in the month. Then I did my sister-in-law a favor (I drove her to Brigham City, and then I went and picked her up and drove her back to Ogden) and she gave me money for gas. I wasn't about to decline, but I still had to tell her she didn't need to. Then out of curiosity I counted the change in my change jar, I had over $20 in there. So, between all of that I have money to last me the next couple of weeks. At least maybe get gas in my car and food.
Also yesterday I was sitting and thinking about life and what is going on in mine. Wondering if I am in the right place doing the things I need to be doing. I'm stressing a little bit about the fact I've put myself in the same spot I was last year with the team. I was also thinking about my grandma. If she was still alive she would have turned 100 yesterday. I just thought about the things I learned from her and how she wouldn't have had any doubts about what I am doing, and she would have been cheering me the whole way. I decided to read my journal from two years ago and as I was reading I was able to see my whole hiring process, and growing process I went through. There were points where I had no idea who the girl I was reading about was. She seemed so different from the person I am today. I related to what she went through, I understood how hard it was for her. But it didn't seem like it was me at all. I guess that is a good thing. It means I am doing what I am supposed to do, growing. Also, as I read this journal I realized even though it was tough last year, I am where I need to be. I am going to go through another tough year. However, I think I have learned somethings that I needed to know that will make this year just a little bit easier. I can't wait until I see and I do so I really do know if the Miss. Duncan now is a different Miss. Duncan than last year. It is going to be a fun ride.