I had an interview with a school in a different district than my focus has been. I didn't get the job. BUT, I learned somethings about teaching and me. First of all, I feel really out of it when it comes to providing answers about teaching in the classroom. It feels so long ago. I walked away from the interview with a good feeling, but also this "What am I doing! I know nothing. I didn't answer those questions very well." feeling. But, I guess I did okay. The principal told me that I was in the top 5, and he also told me he would be willing to recomend me to the principals in the district as a possible canidate for any postions. He also told me of two schools that were hiring and gave me contact info. Next thing I learned, I deserve a second chance. It was the principal who really made me feel this way. I was talking to him and he asked about my non-renewal and then he mentioned that sometimes you just need to start over. Even when he called to tell me I wasn't chosen for the postion he still had this attitude of you can do this. Even with the bumps that come along from disappointments, I can do this. So, I am still looking for a teaching job. I have been praying all week that Heavenly Father will point me the way I need to go. I know Heavenly Father's plan is perfect. I also know that I just need to trust in it. However I still feel lost. I don't know what step to take next. I don't feel like I really know where to go from here. I guess I will just continue to move forward. I will continue to pray that His will be done and not mine.
2 Nephi 4:34
O Lord, I have trusted in thee, and I will trust in thee forever. I will not put my trust in the arm of flesh; for I know that cursed is he that putteth his trust in the arm of flesh. Yea, cursed is he that putteth his trust in man or maketh flesh his arm.
(Why didn't I listen to Pres. Bulloch and memorize this scripture 6 months ago?)
Thursday, June 28, 2012
Thursday, June 14, 2012
Ramblings
Some exciting things are happening. I have a screening interview with a district somewhat close by. Sometimes when I tell people that I am interviewing with that district they say, "That is so far away." It is only 30 minutes from my house the opposite direction from where I live. It may be time for me to leave this part of the valley and find a new set of friends and learn and grow and change in a new way. OR it may be time for me to get a teaching job in the district I grew up in. I contacted them a few weeks ago and they had me write a letter explaining some of the things that happened when I was teaching and what has changed since then. I just got word that I can apply for a job with them. Then I have a little more waiting. I know the Lord has a plan. And honestly, either of these districts would be a great place for me to continue my career. And if I can get interviews with other school districts they would be great places for me also. I just have to continue moving forward and doing the best I can to not be the liability I am on paper. I have to show those who will be interviewing me that I can be the teacher they need in their district/school. I know I can do it. I am trying my best to move forward and to take the steps necessary to become an educator again.
Oh! That reminds me. I am working part time at a grocery store. . . it is the store I worked at while I was going through college. Anyway, they are going through major renovations/remodel. I always work the night shift and that is when A LOT of the work is getting finished. I've gotten to know the construction workers a little bit in the last 4 weeks or so. I was talking to one of them who said that the business will pick up for a few months and then we will be busy after the remodel. I said, "good just in time for me to leave." He looked really confused. I explained that I am looking for a job etc. Then the night supervisor came through and we were talking and I said something about a leaving pretty soon after everything is finished. And he just gave me a look and I said, "I don't want to do this forever." He laughed and we talked for a few more minutes about other things. I know what I want to do. I just keep praying that it is what the Lord wants me to do. I just need to keep moving forward and doing my part and everything will work out.
Last bit of news. . . I'm going back to New York in July. I CAN'T WAIT!
Oh! That reminds me. I am working part time at a grocery store. . . it is the store I worked at while I was going through college. Anyway, they are going through major renovations/remodel. I always work the night shift and that is when A LOT of the work is getting finished. I've gotten to know the construction workers a little bit in the last 4 weeks or so. I was talking to one of them who said that the business will pick up for a few months and then we will be busy after the remodel. I said, "good just in time for me to leave." He looked really confused. I explained that I am looking for a job etc. Then the night supervisor came through and we were talking and I said something about a leaving pretty soon after everything is finished. And he just gave me a look and I said, "I don't want to do this forever." He laughed and we talked for a few more minutes about other things. I know what I want to do. I just keep praying that it is what the Lord wants me to do. I just need to keep moving forward and doing my part and everything will work out.
Last bit of news. . . I'm going back to New York in July. I CAN'T WAIT!
Tuesday, May 29, 2012
Stand in Holy Places
I have been home one month. Crazy, right. I think so. It has been very difficult to get back into life. I have been struggling with some of the timing of things. And I haven't been able to keep my spiritual end of the bargain up. Scripture Study, prayer, temple. . . My mom wanted me to go to my sister's ward on Sunday, they were speaking and Mom was going to be Grandma. I just knew I needed to the stability of going to the home ward. I am so glad I went.
In Relief Society we talked about President Monson's talk from October, Stand in Holy Places. As we were talking about the talk I started thinking about the mission and how it was such a "Holy Place" for me. I started thinking about why it was so holy. Then we talked about prayer. I have never prayed as much in my life as I did on my mission. I then thought, "Allison, you are not praying like you did on your mission. Granted it doesn't have to be 18 times a day, but you know 2 times would do you good. You need to make an effort to pray." When they were sharing the story from the Frankfurt Temple dedication I thought, "As a missionary I was seeking and following personal revelation more than I have in the last 4 weeks I have been home." As I thought about what we were discussing I realized the whole first of the talk was about keeping the commandments and how important they are. My mission was made up of obedience to the commandments. How is my obedience now? I think it is okay. But of course I could do better. If I was a cartoon character I would have had a light blub light up over my head. In order for me to continue Standing in Holy Places, I need to be obedient to the laws of God. I need to pray more. And last I need to seek and follow the promptings from the Holy Ghost. All of the sudden President Monson's talk didn't seem so much a trip down memory road as it did when I heard it in the Fayetteville chapel. It made sense. I am so grateful we have a living prophet who knows the right way to teach those who he is over. I am so grateful for this church. I have made a few goals that I hope will help me be a better person and be able to Stand in Holy Places more. I know that the Lord loves me and He wants me to be happy. While things aren't as easy as I thought they were going to be when I left the mission field I am so grateful I get to go through this struggle. I am so grateful I get to learn what it truly means to be a disciple of Christ. I am going to continue moving forward with the knowledge that I can become a better person and I can be a better person. This Gospel is amazing!
One of the most Holy Places in the world. The Sacred Grove.
Pslams 24:3-5
3 Who shall ascend into the hill of the Lord? or who shall stand in his holy place?
4 He that hath clean hands, and a pure heart; who hath not lifted up his soul unto vanity, nor sworn deceitfully.
5 He shall receive the blessing from the Lord, and righteousness from the God of his salvation.
In Relief Society we talked about President Monson's talk from October, Stand in Holy Places. As we were talking about the talk I started thinking about the mission and how it was such a "Holy Place" for me. I started thinking about why it was so holy. Then we talked about prayer. I have never prayed as much in my life as I did on my mission. I then thought, "Allison, you are not praying like you did on your mission. Granted it doesn't have to be 18 times a day, but you know 2 times would do you good. You need to make an effort to pray." When they were sharing the story from the Frankfurt Temple dedication I thought, "As a missionary I was seeking and following personal revelation more than I have in the last 4 weeks I have been home." As I thought about what we were discussing I realized the whole first of the talk was about keeping the commandments and how important they are. My mission was made up of obedience to the commandments. How is my obedience now? I think it is okay. But of course I could do better. If I was a cartoon character I would have had a light blub light up over my head. In order for me to continue Standing in Holy Places, I need to be obedient to the laws of God. I need to pray more. And last I need to seek and follow the promptings from the Holy Ghost. All of the sudden President Monson's talk didn't seem so much a trip down memory road as it did when I heard it in the Fayetteville chapel. It made sense. I am so grateful we have a living prophet who knows the right way to teach those who he is over. I am so grateful for this church. I have made a few goals that I hope will help me be a better person and be able to Stand in Holy Places more. I know that the Lord loves me and He wants me to be happy. While things aren't as easy as I thought they were going to be when I left the mission field I am so grateful I get to go through this struggle. I am so grateful I get to learn what it truly means to be a disciple of Christ. I am going to continue moving forward with the knowledge that I can become a better person and I can be a better person. This Gospel is amazing!
Pslams 24:3-5
3 Who shall ascend into the hill of the Lord? or who shall stand in his holy place?
4 He that hath clean hands, and a pure heart; who hath not lifted up his soul unto vanity, nor sworn deceitfully.
5 He shall receive the blessing from the Lord, and righteousness from the God of his salvation.
Saturday, April 28, 2012
Home!
I am home! After 18 months in Upstate New York I am back in Utah. Waiting for things to finish and for things to start. I am beginning to realize how much I want to be doing SOMETHING! Maybe I can clean my room or even better yet write my talk for tomorrow. Hmmm. . . I am sure I can come up with something. I will share with everyone what I have learned in the last 18 months and what is going to happen next, later. Right now, I am going to get my behind in gear and write that talk.
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
Sitter sang as they walked and walked and walked
Hi!
So things are getting better a little bit at a time. We found 4 new people to teach and we have a few potentials who we have return appointments with them this week. So, it is picking up. Still walking everywhere. We decided to tract this street and it is in the Northside of the city. So we start walking. . . . up about 5 big hills. . . . we finally get there and all that is on the street is an old folks home. . . . so we go to our back up. . . . up a few more hills. . . . and someone let us in. We talked to him and set a return appointment, and hopefully we can pick him up as an investigator on Saturday. And maybe we will have a ride, because I really don't want to walk up the hills again. Oh well if we do, I will just start loosing more weight.
We tried a potential the Elders had found for us when there were no sisters her in May. We set a return appointment and then when we went back he was busy but his girlfriend's mom was there and she let us teach her. She has a son who is a member in PA and it seems like she really just wants to know what he believes and understand it better. I think it is a great thing. Oh and we also picked up the original potential the next day.
We finally taught and picked up this guy who Sister C and I met. The elders are teaching his son. I'm excited to see where this goes.
I know that things are looking up. I know things will workout. Somedays are a lot easier than others. Somedays I really have to have a trial of my faith before things will workout. I was talking to one of the Elders yesterday and I said I really would like to stay in this area just a little longer. I feel like the ball is just starting to roll and I don't want to leave it just yet. I would like to see it blossom a lot. Hopefully I can stay here. Because honestly, this area needs a sister to be here for longer than 3 months. But, I will do what the Lord wants me to do.
Love You!
Sister D
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
4-17-11
This week was good. Transfers were Wednesday. Sister B and I get a long pretty well. It is really nice.
The only big news from the week is that Matt is getting baptized on Saturday! The Elders were teaching him, then when they were ET'd out we started to teach him. He has been preparing to be baptized for a while and his mom has been kind of resistant, but now she is willing to let him get baptized and we are excited for it to happen. I feel kind of guilty about him getting baptized now rather than when the Elders were around. But, I guess it is the right time for him to be baptized.
Dawn and Joey, have taken a step back, and we just have to flow with it. They are still coming to church, and they are still trying to get to know people. I guess the most important thing is they are still meeting with us.
This week we get to do something different on Wednesday. There is a class at the local community college about marriage and religion. We get to go there and do a panel discussion about our church and the role marriage plays in it. It will be us and one of the members of the branch. I'm really excited to be able to go and do it.
I think that is it. I know it isn't a lot. And actually I could have ended it about five minutes ago. Things just aren't changing or different around here in the last few days. Hopefully, I will have some new news to tell you next week.
The only big news from the week is that Matt is getting baptized on Saturday! The Elders were teaching him, then when they were ET'd out we started to teach him. He has been preparing to be baptized for a while and his mom has been kind of resistant, but now she is willing to let him get baptized and we are excited for it to happen. I feel kind of guilty about him getting baptized now rather than when the Elders were around. But, I guess it is the right time for him to be baptized.
Dawn and Joey, have taken a step back, and we just have to flow with it. They are still coming to church, and they are still trying to get to know people. I guess the most important thing is they are still meeting with us.
This week we get to do something different on Wednesday. There is a class at the local community college about marriage and religion. We get to go there and do a panel discussion about our church and the role marriage plays in it. It will be us and one of the members of the branch. I'm really excited to be able to go and do it.
I think that is it. I know it isn't a lot. And actually I could have ended it about five minutes ago. Things just aren't changing or different around here in the last few days. Hopefully, I will have some new news to tell you next week.
Friday, April 1, 2011
The death of Elizabeth Taylor
It is kind of nice to know life is the same old thing back at home even if you feel like you aren't doing much. So, Elizabeth Taylor I am assuming died on Thursday? I heard some people at the place we do service talking and that is what I thought happened. It apparently wasn't as news worthy as Japan, because no one even told us. Someone asked me about the weather in Utah, and I told them it is a lot like here, just doesn't get as cold and it isn't as humid. But we get the warm and cold and sun and snow and rain. . . etc.
Well, this week has been good. We had exchanges. It was a good experience. My companion for the day was one that has only been out a month. So, I felt that I needed to step things up a bit, and I realized that I am capable of doing all those things I felt or thought were hard. I just need to keep working on it. Next week I will be doing an exchange again and go to the temple. What else. . . Oh, Brother M is getting baptized next Saturday the 9th. So, excited. He still needs to have his interview this week and he will be doing that on Thursday.
Nothing else everything is the same old same old. I keep looking forward to the day when we can have elders back in the area so I don't feel so stretched as to how we need to spend our time.
That is about it. I can't really think of anything else today. I will talk to you later!
Love ya!
Sister D
Well, this week has been good. We had exchanges. It was a good experience. My companion for the day was one that has only been out a month. So, I felt that I needed to step things up a bit, and I realized that I am capable of doing all those things I felt or thought were hard. I just need to keep working on it. Next week I will be doing an exchange again and go to the temple. What else. . . Oh, Brother M is getting baptized next Saturday the 9th. So, excited. He still needs to have his interview this week and he will be doing that on Thursday.
Nothing else everything is the same old same old. I keep looking forward to the day when we can have elders back in the area so I don't feel so stretched as to how we need to spend our time.
That is about it. I can't really think of anything else today. I will talk to you later!
Love ya!
Sister D
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