Another Confession

I've been thinking about this today and I can't stop so I feel like I need to make a confession. For those who graduated from high school with me you'll understand the situation. But I think all of you will understand the frame of mind I was in.
I have a fear, actually two, that aren't known by most people. A lot of people know about my fear of thunder and lightning, only when it is dark and it has woken me up. And of course spiders. These fears are small to me I can face them. The two that I tend to hide are huge. Funny thing is, these two fears contradict each other. Let me explain the situation and then I will let you in my little secret.
Instead of a Senior Prom my high school did a banquet for us. It was one of the last times we could get together hang out and whatever. It was actually a glorified stomp. This is where the awards for Best whatever was given out. They had different things for us to do that will be brought out on respective high school reunions. I can't remember all of the things we did but I remember what they had us do for our 25th reunion. "In 25 years I'll be remembered as. . . " on a big banner so we can see it on that fateful day 25 years from graduating high school.
I think that night for whatever reason I was either feeling sorry for myself or I was hoping by saying what I said, it wouldn't happen. I really have no excuse for the sanity I must have lost that day. But now I look back thinking if I have to I won't go to my 25th reunion because of the embarrassment I feel over this one statement I made at the close of my senior year: "In 25 years I will be remembered as. . . last person to get married."
Biggest fear #1 (in reality they don't hold a separate place): I, Allison Duncan, will see all of my friends married and I will be the only one not. My other biggest fear? Almost the opposite. I will get married, but that marriage will end in divorce. I would rather the former happen than the latter. Now you all know. Don't try to console me. Laugh with me if you would like, but do not feel sorry for me. I think this is the first time I have ever told anyone and I have just told the whole world.
By the way here is the picture of my hair I promised 6 weeks ago. Disregard the messy desk, but note the bag of mint truffle kisses. Yes, still addicted. I have about three bags still at school.